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Most of you might not know me too well, or why I act like a dick/ talk too much/ get angry and pissed at some, too fast. Well now my life is going through shit again! My parents both have Covid and I am the next in line... Been through shit so much this past week and now I simply can`t think straight. My mind is clouded again and I need a big F..ing DRINK... one that would at least make me go away from this stupid world I live in.
Long story short, I am so pissed because no matter what I do, I break things... things like my relations with friends. I am such a jerk in real life and I can`t keep my mouth shut. I feel so much anger almost everyday, just by hearing some stupid shithead talk about politics/ themselves or even worst (I can`t tolerate this) them trying to impose their point of view on something that I already posed no interest in... F..ck U ( I already said I don`t want a fucking 10/10 on my piece of shitty exam paper).
Back to my head issues: trauma, trauma, drama, trauma. Short: couple of years ago fell on my head, still have ears ringing sometimes ( 5m ain`t a small depth). Before that, I used to go out on my bicycle almost every day till an idiot friend put some soda on my brakes and it became sticky... Engaged the brake flipped over and broke some fingers.. and had a small head injury ( the doctor said it`s ok to have ears ringing for 2 weeks so yeah :-] ). Drama cus I used to be the only fat-ish kid in the class for almost 7 years. So yeah 6 of them were just jokes about how I looked like... Still hate `em and feel like I want to rip the guts out of every one of those that laughed at me. And yes I did try to end it... No success though :)) Better luck next time, right?!
Anyway too much shit on my mind. I don`t want to live like this, but I`ll keep my head up just for a bit, to see how this shit plays!
Blizzzzz...
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As others have said, sometimes your friends are not who they seem to be and you will find some of the best ones that you grow the best bonds with and never meet them.
I'm sorry times are tough, I had some friends and family got hit with COVID. Some made it, some did not. I'll be honest, however the support system from family and friends is truly the best thing that can happen. Times do get tough, but you are tough as well and will get through this. Alcohol can be useful at times, but don't become dependent on it then it becomes an issue.
I have seen a lot of people in the world with "Tramautic Brain Injury", a fancy term where someone gets an injury to the head, some times as simple as a fall or more severe due to a car crash or the like. They are getting better and more versed on what happens and how to improve the quality of life. I have a buddy who has vertigo and struggle with balance so sometimes it is difficult but is getting better than what he use to be. They are finding new methods all the time and some doctors struggle with this stuff, but it is ok to do research on your own about this.
As for the people, they will come and go on our lives. That is a tough thing to handle but we also get to recognize who we enjoy in our lives. Sometimes a person is permanent in our life, sometimes they are only for a brief few moments.
And just because friends are online, that still makes them friends. One of the reasons why I preach that is because I feel like I have a stronger connection with some of you folks and I have never met you out in the real world. I just recognize your voices and that brightens my days.
You got this, we are here for you my friend and take care.
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Oki... I feel a bit better after I read all these messages you guys sent, I really don`t know how to say this, but thank you all for every message posted. I`ve moved away from my parents (live in a flat now) as I still have a negative result and they really need an errand boy. Next week I`ll test again. So far no symptoms. I hope this situation evolves well!
Till next time we get to play, stay safe and f..ck this STUPID YEAR!!
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The only good thing about shitty times, really shit times, is that you reach that point where the only way is up. Things will get better bro, you'll see. Take good care of you.
P.S. My fucking mouse is broken and all shops with non-essential goods are closed, meaning no PR for me after all this time.
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