Mental health is one of the hardest things to work on, meds dont always work a I myself suffer from schizophrenia, ur not alone in ur problems. the hard thing is to say what you know is wrong and saying. for me it helped saying it alone and then worked my way up to sharing with others, I see someone once a week for my issues, things can happen to use that are really deep and messed up, talking to someone who just listens can have a huge impact